a phrase that rings true

A phrase that rings true in my life is ‘ruined for the ordinary’.  

See.  
There it is.  

Tattooed on my arm. In my very own hand writing, to remind me every day that I can’t go back.  I’ll never be ordinary.  

I don’t want to be.

That phrase has such depth and meaning, on so many levels to me.   In some ways I think it’s been created by a wonderful complexity of spontaneity and curiosity that drives me to color outside the lines. Fuels me to jump at a chance, jump right in the deep end.  

And in some ways its because of scars that have developed on my mind, and my heart, and my physical body.  It’s the things that life has thrown at me, and my reactions - whether wrong, or right that have ruined me for the ordinary.

I don’t crave wealth.

I don’t want a mortgage and a car payment, or a white picket fence.

I don’t want and Masters or a 9-5 job.

I don’t want to look like I have everything together, and wonder on the inside if it’s going to be ok.

I want joy.

I want freedom.

I want depth.

And truth.

And life.

But I really do enjoy having health insurance...

In the last 9 years I have moved 11 times. 
I’ve lived in 3 countries. 
I’ve had 8 jobs, and 9 pets.  

My life used to be super ordinary.

Until it wasn’t anymore.

Let’s explore that, shall we?